"God I’m scared, I don’t know what to do with these children, please help me!" This was just one thought going through my head as our team drove to the handicapped orphanage that we were helping at last summer in Port-au-Prince, Haiti. I had never cared for handicapped children before and I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Thankfully, when we arrived at our destination we were greeted with curiosity and smiling faces. One little girl even came up to me and

grabbed onto my leg, I quickly picked her up and walked to the back of their house where the rest of the children were. When I came to the back of the house I was baffled and a little in shock at how many handicapped children and adults (around 90) there were. As I walked around the beds and strollers and wheelchairs that were laid out for the children to lay on I felt overwhelmed at how many different kind of disabilities I saw. Some children had minor physical disabilities (I don’t think any disability is minor but for lack of a better word) like only having one arm or another child wasn’t born with fingers except for a thumb and a pinky finger. Others had disabilities that could have easily been "fixed" in the United States like hydrocephalus, which is fluid built up in the brain or glaucoma. Almost all of them were severely handicapped such as blindness, mental disorders that did not allow them to function in the "real world" and cerebral-palsy. All of them are so dependent, and as our group started to love on the children, feed them, hold them, we saw and felt something amazing. These children loved unconditionally and they had joy, you saw it in their eyes and in their smiles; they are all beautiful. I was amazed, through their pain and suffering that they were going through they still smiled. These children are completely in God’s hands they are totally dependent on Him and the people that God has put in their life to help them. 

   

   I believe in total dependence in God. He gives you love so you can love others. He gives you joy, and the strength to persevere. He comforts you when everything seems to be falling a part. He rejoices with you when everything is coming together. He is our rock and our fortress. He desires us to depend on Him, He wants to fulfill our needs. He takes care of every little detail if we allow Him to. How amazing is that! Don’t get me wrong it can be very hard to depend solely on God for all your needs, I struggle with this day to day, but how amazing would our lives be if we would just lay in his hands and allow Him to takes us places we never could have imagined going to, and meeting people we would never have met.